Ponder....

Roslyn, 1 friend of mine comfy me...
" who knows if he would change his mind if you manage to sort things out? but i doubt you would want to tell him this coz you want what's the behst for him right?"

I would not stop him to leave, to chase his dream and build his kingdom tho... and now i rather don't want to know the outcome and the reason behind why he behave and react like that way tho.. coz it doesn't serve the purpose coz the timing already overed.

Secondly, Rosyln mentioned again. "Then let the man decide. If you guys are meant to be together, no one can change that". Sounds reasonable and trustworthy? i ponder...i doubt. I don't think thing will work out anymore, coz i just burnt the bridge away.

I don't know how to face him when we meet again and the friendship will not be the same, i don't know how to patch it back again and it's not menable. We won't be closed as before, we might stay a distance away from each other, stop contact each other, give some spaces and fresh air to chill down. Just wipe everything off from memory, can i?

WY, another friend of mine told me that, " No, you didn't get the wrong message because he was hurt, that's why he threw the ball back at you. How you feel now is how he feels."
I've a big doubt, the pain i felt he might not know. The fear in me, he won't know. My past still keep hauting me non stop to reject all.

Zareen who is a sweet gem, she comfy me that: " you wish him the best, he wants a better life, so you show support. He will come home and you can visit, try not to be sad."
But i can tell you, it won't gonna to be happened tho...

I'm telling myself, LET GO for all, not worth it!