What's matter with me?

Words always sharp as a sword to slaughter my heart when one uttered it harshly and mean it.
After all, come back with apologize. Ironically, before you used your word to slap my face, don't come back apologies that you don't really mean it to do so. It does a matter to me! It's hurt!

Am i seriously only suitable to be scolded and talk that down to me by you? My forehead got write such word ' please scold me?' Come on, i'm just an ordinary female born by my beloved mum, either you.

Whenever i heard your story about you and the gal, i feel pissed about it cause you don't deserve such a treatment from her. She just toying with you when she needed, ever since you know her since you were born, if you just can't let go, then just let it be. Who am i? My 2 years of friendship doesn't worth a penny to you. You know how to end it , you just blindly folded refuse to face the fact she is over about you. She even dare to ask you out to meet her new bf, and keep calling you for god sake, yet you still entertain her. If you still remain like that way, you are inviting her to do whatever she wants to harass you. Just be my guest!

I've done my level best and play my role , done my part as a buddy friend stand by you and always be there for you. End of the day, what i get in return? Not an appreciate, not a gratitude, just a blame! Labeled me as mean, nasty, shallow, rude, sarcasm! what else?

Since you know it gonna to hurt me, why you want to do so? You know you gonna bear the consequences after all, why? Where's your wisdom & integrity?

I'm getting numb to hear all your stories about her, whereby i know nothing about her in real life.
You just allow her again and again come back to stir up your feeling, made you feel shit then you turn it to me!

Again and again, i endured all. Whenever you need my ear, i will be here for you. You need advise, i will provides, but when you gonna to listen to me? Non! I just refuse to see you will getting hurt again, i just being nice and generous to protect you. Till the extend i got numb, i said nothing about it , no more! When i say something is wrong, say nothing is wrong! what you want me to say for more? What you really wants from me? attention? you get it now! tender-loving-care i always do.

I hate been accused by you! That's enough for me!
You said i don't understand you, fine! if you didn't tell me, you expected me to read through your mind? sorry for god sake , i don't have such extra ordinary power and ability to do so.
You told me, she called you but you refused to pick up her call, but you did missed call her back. She sms you, you not reply but after that you were waiting for her call again. I just laugh at myself to death after i read your statement, that's ridiculous! you just want to hear from her of what your trick all about, contrary you still miss her but you are denial! It all doesn't make sense to me!

Your statement to me: "May be you don't get it but i don't reply her sms, i do answer calls because am not shallow as some people are. I know how you feel about me and her, may be i should stop sharing things.Whatever. I'm not arguing with you. No mouth argue, no eye see."
I told you again clearly, it's your own obsession okay?!
I just wish you: enjoy yourself and all the best!
Then you bomb me with this:
"why did you say it with such sarcasm? just your 2 cents as if am not worth anything. You didn't even hear what i told her, i answered in atone which will mean less harassment..i respect your views but hear all the story before making one. Enjoy myself what??! i don't need you to be sarcastic to me. we both know your deadly limit,we both know i can ignore it, cut the sarcasm."
It's HURT! Absolutely hurts me! How ungrateful?! Stop sharing, stop come to look for me, may be then you will know who is being true. Cut the crap short, let you be!
I'm quite tired to argue with you!! You know i do care, but you just take me for granted!
I don't deserve such treatment from you, i don't need it!
Fine, i apologies for my statement made jump to conclusion. But HECK! you not even tell me anything ok?
You have to start be responsible for your own choice of action, every course of action has its result. you know what to do, you just lack of integrity and wisdom , or you totally ignore to do so.
If you wish to soak in pain forever, i can't help you coz you are not even stand up to help yourself for god sake!
You just burn the bridge away before i have the chance!!
After 12 hours, you online came to apologies to me for what you have done to me. I just being cool about it, i replied one word : Okie!
If you were wondering why? i bet you know why!? You know i'm upset with you, but don't you expecting me to accept your apologize with warmth?
You mentioned: It's that seems all you want to tell me?
Come on, what else you want me to say for more? Then you upset appeared offline.
After people slap my left face, should i give my right face let you to slap on it again? NO WAY!
I will remain cold blood, heartless, shallow whatever you said to me, i just take your word. As your wish!


I shall let you hit the wall , feel the pain! then let you crawl back!

A murrain on your obsession!

Year End Retreat

Last night my boss out of suddenly invites me go for dinner and have a booze with him. I was surprised tho..hahahaa...No doubt it's a great pleasure to indulge myself with yummy food!!
We went to Equatorial Bangi tried out Japanese restaurant, Kampachi. The outlet with simply set up, very cozy. The menu is comprehensive till i've no clue what to order. hahahaha..
Heck! I forgot to bring my camera, i can't snap any nice picture to blog about it.
I had gyuniku teriyaki (beef with teriyaki sauce) bento set and ebi tempura. I requested the beef doneness to be medium, but the beef was served in medium well, once i bite it, i told my boss it's not australian beef!! it's from china!! both of us laugh out loud, my boss impressed that i can tell the different of the meat texture! muahahaha...of coz, he should know who i work with yeah..i learned from my bosses. :P My boss had salmon sashimi, omg! only 6 tiny pieces, but again..it's lip smacking FRESH! simply love it! We enjoy our booze up...ASAHI beer!! very smooth and with good after taste!
~*burp~* A good year end retreat for me!! Thanks boss!

Dancing Style

What's your dancing style?
twist your body..grove your body..shake your butt...swing your hand..put your hair down, shake your head..

A few day ago, Jae sms me that he was drop dead boring in the party. His friend dragged him out for clubbing..midnight DJ performance.

Here i shared with you all, Jae's funny sms :-
" Boring like hell, Trance and techno music. Can't understand how these damn people can dance on that kind of music, some jump like got pain in ass, some wiggle like took drug and some point into the air like jesus is coming..."

OMFG! damn hilarious !! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
My dear Jae, you really made my day! ^_^

Heart warming

Last week i was terribly sick for 2 days...
1 day before Jae embarked his journey back to MUR, Pegs told me to bring him to try out food foundry. After work i picked him up, we went to post office coz he wanted to send an envelope to UK. We were waiting one hour over there, very stuffy and crowded. I was tired and leaned on his shoulder to rest bit, from that place i started to sneeze non stop..GOSH! I kid you not, i finished up my whole pack of tissue paper, my car was flooded with tissue papers while i was driving all the way to PJ. Finally we found food foundry, offers nice food with reasonable price. I can't enjoy my food much, why? coz my nose was blocked by mucus, i can't smell and taste anything from my food!! aw....-_-'' James was laughing his ass off about it. We had a glorious time together.
On the way back, he started to cough his lung out! poor baby! He told me he's sick while on the journey back home.
The night i had a tough time went to bed, i kept awake, went in and out washroom, grabbed tissue papers, drank water, freezing cold couldn't get a nice sleep. The next day i woke up drag my exhausted body to work in office, i felt so bloody sick! flu still conquering me non stop in office, and high fever came hit on me, sore throat all came one short. I can't stand it anymore, i felt so cold outside but inner part like sitting on burning fire, that kind of stupid hot and cold sensation at the same time was killing me! After lunch time, i told my boss i need a doctor! I went off quickly seek a doctor, doctor told me is virus infection, i sneezed too much till hurt my inner part of throat. Took my medicine rushed home shower, took my med straight hit my sack ZzZz... poor me!!
At the same time, Maxis called me up informed me that next day technician will come to fix my broadband problem, yes! since i was on MC next day, please do come fix it right away for me, before i get annoyed and bite you all!
In the afternoon, i received M's sms, asked whether i still on MC huh?coz no reply from my email. hahaha... He asked me do i need some porridge? I teased him: home delivery? i don't mind! :P He asked me : i prefers pork or chicken porridge , small or big portion? Could i wait till after 7pm? so sweet of him, awww.... :P Suddenly i felt so heart warming oh...my friend actually care about me loads...^_^

Happy ever..

I'm glad that i manage to patch back our friendship , just like back to the same old time.
Still can joke around, teasing each other, sms and email each other..sharing thoughts and dining together once while..
I do miss the good times been together...
I've draw a line that not to over nice to a person, i hold on my feeling ...let the rest just follow the flow as it is...
Happy ever to have you in my life..
for present, for the past, for the future...